Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Fear & Loathing in Toronto.

Fear steals sleep like a thief in the night as it strives to rob us of our security.  It condemns us to a lifetime imprisoned by questions of whether we are worthy; our own insecurities the ruthless wardens that deprive us of our identity.  Worry, like a blade sharpened by time prevails over the strength of mankind, though it should be held accountable and indicted for the stress that is its greatest crime.  Risks were taken throughout history by Genghis Khan and other conquerors of yore, but now our leaders are engaged in wars that solely result in remorse.  Conflicts are concealed in all of our false utterances, driven by the apprehension that the truth is a disturbance that should be restricted to our own internal monologues.  Ulterior motives litter the landscapes of our interactions resulting in sadness tainted by all the things we should and could have said.  Unsurety gnaws at our resolves as we become increasingly indecisive, our inner voices silenced as though insight is a force that we should fight with.  Paranoia is a poison that preys on us through infection; plotting against us armed with anxiety, which often unleashes a fury more terrifying than dragons.  Its fiery breath a terror plot more fearsome than the deadliest weapon of mass destruction.  As we become further consumed by our own embellished imperfections, through gritted teeth we disregard that we are blessed.  Fear, a fierce but critical and fatal disease, equipped with the strength to make us fall to our knees.  Cowardice gained the confidence to invade all of the continents, more densely populated than the courage that could conquer it.  Free-will rendered obsolete as humanity has collapsed under the weight of ignorance, our collective reins now held by false notions of democracy, which tightens its grip upon its leash around our necks composed of hypocrisy.  Fear, the greatest tyrant reigns over us as we look over our shoulders terrorized by the unknown.  Alarms blare when we are threatened, with greater power the more we feel we stand to lose, as we remain unaware that our own fortunes are the breeding grounds for guilty consciences.  Yet still we are often quick to deny that this path was ours to choose.  Fear, the most skilled opponent, once mastered does not need to be a mystery.  I renege on my promise to be afraid, fear will no longer get the best of me, I refuse to live without being alive, as I am reclaiming my right to be happy.

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