Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Lullaby

Broken and fragile as you tear my heart out of my chest, you claim to understand me yet refuse to accept me as less than my best. Regretful now of your name tattooed across my chest, feeling like Mariah but it's me that is obsessed. I wish that I could let you go, but the emptiness takes over, though my love for you still grows. The chains that bind me to you loosen with each new day, as the love that I give you is returned to me in disarray. I begin to smell the rotting as our love slowly decays. I thought I would be damaged but I am surprisingly unscathed. No longer caged, I can spread my wings and soar. I will take this opportunity to reinvent myself once more. Your neglect was only perfect for me for so long, I have managed to overcome it though, and have come out of it so strong. You tossed me aside like a broken toy, like a doll without it's arms. I refused to leave home without you until I realized you were merely a bracelet without any charms. I am much wiser now, as the sun has begun to set. I will view this as a lesson and never a regret. You changed me for the better, taught me right from wrong. Helped me stand on my own two feet until I tasted your deceit. It stung my lips and burned my eyes, hypnotizing like the devil's lullaby. You would wait until I was asleep, then creep out into the night, allowing your eyes to drink deep of sinful sights. Oblivious, no more, I refuse to be your bedded whore. Ignorance is no longer my best friend, I have managed to transcend as your words have lost all meaning, and the power to offend. I bid you adieu, as I leave you behind; I have no more time to be maligned. I walk away feeling better than ever before, my strength restored, as love don't live here anymore.

Monday, September 14, 2009

Reaper

The road we travelled on together converged into different paths, you burnt the candle on both ends and then cried as you felt my wrath. No more holding hands, or dancing in the dark; we will never make amends as our love was damaged from the start. You carelessly confused what we had for something good, deep inside I knew that I was the only one that understood. I celebrate the impending departure of my pain and suffering, no longer required to stay put like a bird with a broken wing. I will always reign supreme as victory courses through my veins. You can now let go and release me from your reins. I am no longer a child, your services are no longer needed in my life. You were often the jailer that teased me with freedom but instead you covered me in sin and offered me nothing but strife. I feel defiled as I walk through the streets, wondering how I ever let this get so out of hand. There was once a time when I assumed you were my ticket to the promised land. Now, instead, I sit in a daze, hurting myself as my world is ablaze. The tempestuous fire burns throughout the night, setting fire to everything it catches in its sight. I refuse to wait for you to increase the damage that you have caused. In every story that you wrote, I was your antagonist; this defamation ensued for too long, as I fought harder to resist death's tempting kiss. I covered my windows and locked all my doors, rebuilt my walls and shut you out once more. Now that I have left you crawling in the dark, I hope you can see that it is time to disembark. Abandon your baggage, it makes you look uglier than you are; yet you still believe that you are as élan as wine and caviar. Follow me into a world that is devoid of you, filled with colour yet seldom blue. You were the reaper that I refused to fear, as I bid you adieu and disappeared.

Four Seasons of Love

You were the first snowflake of winter, always so eager when you came. You made me fall like autumn leaves, thieves could not have been as sly. You are wise beyond your years, as your whispers are similar to a summer's breeze that tickles my ears. No matter the season, winter, summer, fall or spring; you have been blessed with the best and that is why you are my everything. I envisioned your arrival before you even came, left your side foolishly, thinking others would make me feel the same. Your eyes shine so brightly, providing me with guidance whenever I am lost at night. I sought shelter and solace and found it in your kiss, as the seasons keep changing, offering mother nature bliss. I can no longer pretend that you are not the one, as you have managed to simultaneously become my moon and my sun. You are the diamond that shines in my sky, the drug that never fails to get me high. I am wrapped up in your love, tossing and turning to rise further above. You are the problem that raises my spirits and weakens my bones, and the solution which chases away my sobriety and follows me home. Music could not sound as poignant and bittersweet as the words you whisper softly before caressing my cheek. I have won my biggest battle to date, my Waterloo was you, preordained by fate. You are the ale that makes me sing, like a bird no longer caged you have released me from my prison and shown me freedom at its best. And like the sun, I am comforted in knowing that you will always rise in the east and then set in the west. In the fall, your love encompasses me, painting with vibrancy whilst colouring my leaves. Winter comes and you keep me warm, nestled by the fire and safe from harm. When Spring has sprung, I fall deeper with you, slowly ascending the ladder of love. Summer is an eternal state whenever you are around; I can always feel the heat you emanate, was lost but now am found.

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