Accident-prone yet bulletproof, resilience courses through my veins. After pulling shrapnel from my own hell-bent self-destruction, all I was left with was me. Through embracing my darkness, I found the light. Here lives a collection of poetry, prose, and reflections on trauma, survival, desire, and becoming.
Wednesday, November 09, 2022
Outer Space — A Poem on Distance, Dating, and Emotional Drift
Immaturity.
that maybe we could achieve
to relieve, release; to ease
our anxieties, undeniably
the parts of us that were diseased
our tormented entirety,
oh how it reeks, this irony
that maybe we could be free
too blind to see
no vacancy for emotions that
had no agency, amazingly
abrasively, we returned to
being strangers in the streets
like two opposing ships at sea
the beasts but not the bees
like ghosts who would not grieve,
the gifts that we received,
that day that we, conceived
this wicked web we weaved.
a melodramatic make-believe.
how prepubescent
juvenile, infantile,
without blessing,
the next best thing.
Inexpressive, undeniable
inattentive, unreliable,
wreaking havoc through
speaking words so viable.
Titanic. (Freestyle)
Gigantic. I'm manic,
Atlantic, like the Titanic.
Why panic?
Not like you'll be in the attic,
or in the annex,
you didn't vanish,
these antics are so erratic,
but you love my Johnson
cos you know I'm Magic.
You talkin to me?
Let's talk about tragic.
Gremlin like Gizmo,
inspector gadget.
Get you lit,
wanna play with matches.
No press passes, just fat asses,
big butts, and tiggolbooties.
Take you on a date,
out to the movies.
Make those milks shake
sip on those smoothies.
Call me big poppa,
I'll get it juicy.
Tequila shots,
let's keep it boozy.
Buy you a Mickey,
let's get it Goofy.
I'm not Bill Cosby,
won't be no roofie.
Dr. Huxtable without
the Rudy.
Don't come for me,
cos I'm Judge Judy
Got some splainin to do,
you can call me Ricky,
& you be Lucy.
You can pick your nose,
but don't get choosy.
All tied up, so I say
this loosely, if you
act like Suzy, then
you're gonna lose me.
Come see the wizard,
we could get real woozy.
Heat it up, hot tub, or maybe
jacuzzi. Take you to the spa,
let you feel real bougie,
Discotheque, know I keep
you groovy.
Catch a flick, or watch
a movie, flick your bean,
or you could do me.
Got a problem with it?
Then why don't you sue me.
And until then, better keep
it cute, B.
Brand new to you,
but I'm the same old G.
Kasherintherye could kash you in the eye,
or you could cash me ousside.
How bout dat, I'll let you decide.
Going straight to the top,
maybe I'll let you ride.
At 3:14, get a slice of me,
cos I'm a pumpkin pie.
And if you're still confused,
then I'll set you loose.
Admit you lose,
get a new groove.
Give it to you straight,
no chase no lube,
find your place, & it's
safe to say, it aint the louvre,
this ain't it, sis, you're not a hit.
You can't touch this,
cos you are dismissed.