Deeper.

My cancer soaked heart is what led me here, leaving me confused, it is more than I can bare. I have never felt so cheap or used, as I battle my foreign fears. I am the sole cause, the muse, for my own dark despair. Night falls as death threatens to strip me of my soul. I know I should fight harder but to what avail? For your vision of love, my frigid heart still tolls. My fountain of youth, you were my holy grail. Crawling through the dark, I searched for the rabbithole that would lead me back to you. Before my soul accepts its fate, and succumbs to heartbreak's fatal flu. Love is a flesh eating virus that poisons your brain; makes you foolishly see beauty in things that are mundane. I thought that I would break the pattern and put an end to this chain, but instead I pull the plug, you win. Watch my hopes and dreams for us as they circle the drain. I gave you all of me, hopelessly, even things that were solely intended for me. Then toyed with your emotions, demonized you until you had no choice but to exorcise yourself of me and set yourself free. You were a victim of my distorted notion of love, twisted, tossed, and turned until you were forced to seek guidance from above. Queen karma will surely make me suffer for my mistreatment of you or perhaps it is enough recompense for me to watch another reap the benefits of you. Is it me that you think of while he whispers in your ear? Do you think that he has it in him to undo your sadness and then dry your tears? If you can answer yes and attest that I never loved you best. Be my guest, and digress, just remember that my love for you will flow eternal, it is deeper than the rest.