Accident-prone yet bulletproof, resilience courses through my veins. After plucking out the shrapnel from my own Hell-Bent self-destruction, all I was left with was me. Through embracing my darkness, I found the light. Here lie a sordid collection of POETRY, PROSE, AND REFLECTIONS on the traumas & triumphs along the way.
Monday, June 07, 2010
Evanescence
Your emancipating evanescence hit me on my way out the door, as our bodies separated, love don't live here anymore. We failed to communicate our needs until we could no longer see eye to eye; your water that once nourished me is poison now and has run dry. We tried so hard to make it, as we held on tightly to one another's hand. Naivety was our downfall, as we refused to accept that our love had become a no man's land. Desolately isolated, barren like the deserts although our hearts were as frozen as the Arctic cold. Our love was replaced with the wickedest hate, as you carved a hole in my heart and desecrated my psychological state. You satisfied your hunger for pain as you tore up my insides like acid rain. This deluded distance dances drearily drinking me in, as I try to push you further away to stop the pain that I am in. I crystallize with fear, as my diamond eyes help me to see clear. I realize that you wanted to be my rock while turning everyone else to stone. You wanted to keep me behind lock and key, will your regime ever be overthrown? You ruled like a tyrant, tainting towns with your twisted smile. Your villainous vehicle vehemently vexes me with its vile vapour, I am made of stars but you recycled me like paper. You rearranged me, made me believe my mind was in shambles while my heart was on my sleeve. I gracefully grieve for your loss, even though your misrepresentation prevented me from seeing through your pretty gloss. My heartbreak stained eyes cried through the lonely nights as I dazedly dreamed that you would undo your wrongs and make things right. Running resentfully through the streets that have no names, I have tired of your games and watched the house that I grew up in burst into flame. All that was once familiar seems brand new and artificial, as your love has scarred my skin and made me solely superficial. I held on to your every word, like a newborn child until I choked on the glitter that I swallowed and knew that I had been tricked and was just beguiled. Like a carousel, you turned me around in circles until I had lost my way; you blackened my teeth then rot my breath like gangrenous decay. Overwhelmed, as you throw me overboard. I falter, ready to drown but find the strength to find my life's support. Unburdened of you, I can now resplendently report that I no longer feel like my life has been cut short. You have been deported, ceased to exist like an obscure trend, while I will blossom in my own right as I pretend that you were never my best friend. I have scaled the ladder that led from you to here, and said goodbye to the wasted wanton, yet wistful years. Goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend, there will never be another who will be able to replace you, but always others that proceed you who will help me to transcend.
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