Monday, November 15, 2010

Agape.

Dreaming whilst conscious is something I thought to be impossible until you entered my life. Prior to this, I thought that this feeling was only true in fairy tales; enchanted, I take your hand and dance dazedly in a room full of strangers unconcerned with whether anyone is watching. They might stare, and criticize, but they fail to see the amber fire that flickers fiercely behind my eyes. Your velvet kisses that make me weak, and your touch that makes me blush, have added more purpose to my smile, as I'm helplessly inside your clutch. The hunter has become the hunted now that you are here with me, it was only possible once I stopped myself from searching for a cause to be happy. I found the cure inside myself, as real happiness comes from within; much to my chagrin, I refuse to stop myself from falling. The days I spend with you are reminiscent of paradise, the warmth that you emanate is now all I need to feel enticed. Nights with you are blissful, as I feel your heart beat against my chest, your scent is the antidote whenever I feel depressed. I yearn for nothing more than to hold you in my arms until the day I die, to feel the sweet solitude that overpowers me whenever I gaze into your starry eyes. The stars above are green with envy for the ways in which you shine, our paths align weaving vulnerability as I remove the walls that prevent you from being mine. My Berlin come crashing down, leaving me in its wake, as I trip, stumble, and fall headfirst into consciousness, and I am finally awake. The sweetest thing that I have ever felt has come in the form of your kiss, the touch of your lips, and the fragrance of your breath are now all I need in order to exist. Wrapped in your love, your skin soothes me like manna from above. I gaze dazedly into your eyes and feel the heat of a thousand suns rise. Hypnotized, I catch my breath, as our bodies rise and fall as one, you are the reason, and the cure to the pain that had tricked me into believing that it had won. Stunned, I close my eyes, and open my heart to the beauty of our song, in my dreams I have prepared myself for this for what feels like far too long. I crossed the seven seas only to encounter you, even dared to search far, and wide, when I should have realized instead that our paths would one day collide. Shaken awake violently from a nightmare that I thought would never end, my saviour has come thank you for rescuing me from myself, and making an effort to be my friend. I have emerged victorious from my self-imposed exile in a cage for my cocoon, with majesty, I spread my wings remarkably, and fly towards the moon. It illuminates me from the inside out, I glow with the intensity of a euphoric firefly, as I prostrate in gratitude from the bliss that has assisted me shed my previous skin, defiled by dreary doubts. Drowning in a wave of passion, my body shivers with positivity and joy, you are my addiction, and I will be your toy. Whip me, and restrain me, my agape has been deployed. It can only go up and get better from here, as you have pushed away the pain and alleviated all of my fears; wiped my tears of sadness and replaced them with celebratory cheers. Forever thine, forever mine, forever ours it will remain; elated that my heart, mind, body, and soul are in agreement once again.

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