Crossroads.

As one proverbial door closes, another opens and opportunistic me jumps at the chance. Fragments and remnants of memories of yesterday remain in my head where they passionately dance. They twirl, and swirl, painting my consciousness with colour, angst, and humour. My decision to walk away from you, and find myself was the best I have ever made and liberated me as you were my malignant tumour. I seethe as I breathe, piecing together the puzzles that were left unfinished as I work towards letting go of the past. I gain insight from my introspection, no longer focused on trying to outlast, but rather working on relinquishing my ego and getting over my obsession with what's reflected in my looking glass. The pills you gave me were the ones that made me feel so small, unlike Alice yours was not a Wonderland but rather a dystopia served to me from my own hands. The aftermath of you found me broken, and in shambles; I hope you understand that betting on you was just a gamble. It was a learning process that strengthened my confidence and ultimately my love for myself. I have finally removed the letters and the photographs of you and I that lined the pages of albums placed upon my shelf. The bitterness has ceased and I only wish you well, as the curse of your spell wears off, we can now disengage and dreamily dispel. I see myself through new eyes and recall all of the reasons that I have to smile; my talent, my wit, and intellect will surely collaborate to create a future that is fulfilling and worthwhile. The fragrance of familiarity has evacuated and been exorcised from my soul. Your voice which resonated throughout me like a bell is now obsolete as I have terminated its terrorizing toll. Forever and a day were over much faster than we assumed that they would be; I have locked my secrets deep within waiting for someone worthy enough to retrieve the key. I am tempted to refer to you as a mistake that I should never had made, but instead I comprehend that you were a lesson that I had to learn, prior to acquiring an upgrade. With you, I was buried alive and left for dead in a shallow grave, it took me so long but I mustered up the courage that I needed to escape being enslaved. In Purgatory I lay awake, wrestling with my sanity, and trying not to implode; when my restless feet rescued me leading me to my cure in the form of cryptic crossroads. Instead of the Hell you gave me, I opted out and began my ascent to paradise, feeling hopeful for the first time in years, I finally gave in and trusted in my own advice. I took the road less travelled and gained myself along the way, enriched by the lives that crossed my path, beautifying my life like the most bountiful, flowery bouquet. Birds of prey salivated as they saw my despair ridden body make its way through deserts filled with sand, yet I persevered against the vultures as my determination was my upper hand. Nobler than most kings, I am worth my weight in gold; my integrity makes others weak, my loyalty results in karmic retribution that returns twofold. I traded all that I was and lost it all to be a victim of your game. Smartened up, I am wiser now and held the extinguisher that doused our fickle, fair-weather flame. You played the martyr card and perfected the role that you were sadly born to play, which is why I have taken my life by the reins once again, abandoned your sinking ship and walked away. I wish you all the best and hope that one day you mature, learn to accept responsibility and you may eventually be more than just the flavour du jour. The serendipity of our meeting led me to evolve into a phoenix that arose from the depths of your fiery and suffocating destruction; it was the catalyst that I needed to fall in love with myself once again, I am the master of self-seduction. I am a better, stronger version of the little boy that blew your horn; I have removed the thorns you pricked me with, and I have finally been reborn.