Monday, February 23, 2009

Candy.

I prayed this day would come, one in which I'd surrender to my love. I have finally succumbed, to the pleasures that tend to make me numb. I searched above and below for the promised land, and then you came along and offered me your hand. I followed you around, you often led me astray. Made me feel so petty, like I was merely made of clay. I danced when you asked and responded to your every beck and call. I was naive to assume that you would catch me if I fall. You disguised your bitterness in candy, which made it artificially sweet. Until I removed the wrapper to reveal that it was solely deceit. How long can I pretend when all I crave is revenge? To remove the smile from your face and put you back in your place. I have made you so strong, built you up from the ground. All the while you have played me out, just like a song. You forget to give thanks where they are deserved, as you unconsciously portray the image of one so calm and reserved. I see through your guise, and the part that you play. I can see the real you, each and every day. Your many personalities may seem to fool the rest, but I have known you for so long as I loved you the best. The curtains have closed, yet I'm still standing here. When I think of our future, I tremble in fear. I thought I was a man, but I am really just a mouse. How did I ever allow this stranger to enter my house? Our worlds have collided and the sun's come crashing down. My smile's been removed and now, I permanently frown. My tears have become tattooed upon my wrinkled, aging skin, and I pray that one day, I will be confident enough to stop my suffering.

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