Accident-prone yet bulletproof, resilience courses through my veins. After plucking out the shrapnel from my own Hell-Bent self-destruction, all I was left with was me. Through embracing my darkness, I found the light. Here lie a sordid collection of POETRY, PROSE, AND REFLECTIONS on the traumas & triumphs along the way.
Friday, January 15, 2010
Temptation
You were forbidden but you made my heart smile. One look at you, and I was hopelessly beguiled. I gave into temptation, you were the queen's tarts. I am hoping that this infatuation soon departs. I am intrigued to say the least, you are a feast for my eyes. As the sun rises and sets, I am certain that I will not have any regrets. You gave me the gift of clarity, the grass just might be as green and carve a path that leads to prosperity. No vanity, just lust, this attraction is much too robust to toss to the side, like a broken doll. Enthralled, I fall further into your web, causing confusion but I hope that it never ends. But instead, I know that we will be become the best of friends. Your intrigue lies in your carefree attitude and includes the many moods of your humble stew. I want to hold your hand and show you how to be strong, it has been too long since butterflies have danced along with the lyrics to my life's song. A day spent with you is like a thousand nights sublime, you can be my partner in crime as we lock ourselves away, in a prison of our own. Like a bird with a clipped wing, I want to nurse you back to life and make you my everything. I see you hurting yourself and it hurts me too; knowing that you are full of potential that is left to be pursued. Hold my hand and follow me into a land where we can be free, devoid of distractions, but full of interaction. Let our bodies join as one, as I teach you all I have learnt under the burning sun. You just might be the one, but I am too much of a coward to accept it. So instead, I embrace the inevitable rejection that threatens to devour me whole. You should be my moon high above my sky, the one whom I turn to at night to say goodbye. Tale a chance, make a bet and root for me; I can fill your world with endless ecstasy. But until then, you will solely remain a friend. I will help your heart mend, and help you transcend this idle state that others fail to comprehend. We will walk together, racing toward a common goal. I can see us growing old, watching our future together as it unfolds. My heart is filled with cowardice and sadness for the risk that I must take, but I would much rather swim in your provocative lake than make another mistake. Doomed for an eternity, to wallow in a pool of my own self-pity. You rocked my world, like an electric guitar; like the mandolin, your classical beauty is the only excuse for the amount of attraction I feel as the walls fall down in my own personal Berlin.
Monday, January 04, 2010
Smile
From the very first moment that I encountered your beauty, I knew that my life would change. You made me blossom like spring does to the cherry tree, and set me free from a life of keeping misery company. I braced myself as you entered my life, knowing that you were one of a kind. Our fingers entwined, as we danced cheek to cheek, our paths now intertwined. I knew I would fall as hard as the rocks that line the ocean's floor. Yours was a kiss that sent shivers throughout my spine, one that I yearned to explore. I caved and allowed you to steal my heart away from my sleeve that shamefully wore it, I admit that it was your smile that made the world infinitely less abhorrent. Your love encompasses me in its entirety, like the most majestic waterfall. I fall deeper in this love that cascades over me, ebbing and flowing, further enthralling me with each whispered word and touch. Your voice provides me with the security needed to brace winter's icy cold, as your arms fill me with warmth because your Midas touch is gold. Your smile washes away the sorrows that danced into my world, like the oyster that offered nothing other than its meagre pearls. Your rainbow sky paints the canvas of my life with colours that are endlessly bright, as my heart calls your name whenever it is in need of light. You rocked my boat, and made me feel so brand new, I am filled with gratitude, yet I always fail to thank you. The steps that lead from my heart to yours decrease with each passing day, three years to the day and I still love the image of success that you portray. You are my best friend, my lover and my lucky star; the tears of my beautiful, yet gently weeping guitar. The sitar, that classically strums to the beat of my heart. From the start, I knew you would never depart; that you would stay and essay the love that you display. You rock my world, my life; like the knife that cut through my soul and attempted to devour me whole. My naivety led me to believe that your arms would never relieve the pain that I eternally receive. With a kiss and a hug, you were the cancerous drug that led me to my exile. It took awhile, but in the end, your never ending charm always beguiled my style. Your smile, wrapped up in a bow, is the sole pride I have left to show. And because of my glee, your love has violently filled my soul, and captured my heart in its tide, like the Adriatic sea.
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Corporate Slave
You think a man's worth is measured by what he owns, then tell me what comfort is money when you break your bones? It may buy you distractions to avoid the pain that you feel, but when life has ended, it's no longer real. Everything is impermanent, from the house that you live in to the clothes that you wear, at the end of the affair, it's only beauty that remains. Take life by the reins, renew your spirit and remember your purpose. Lust after things that better your life, as opposed to those that cause others strife. Money may buy you freedom from stress, and what you have mistaken for a mind full of peace. The latest technologies that are one of a kind, but a newer version will always be released. It forces you to keep up or get left behind, watching helplessly as your greed is increased. Beauty surrounds you, I see it in fleeting moments, dancing amidst the corners of your smile. It may take awhile for you to change, but anything would be better than this life of refunds and exchange. Open up your heart and smell the scent of success, view the world through new eyes, watch the sun's majestic rise. There is so much to do that does not cost you a cent, yet it fills your heart with hope, and contributes to your karmic ascent. Consumerism has corrupted the notion that you are as unique as fabric that colour has imbued; no two sheets will ever be the same except for when you participate in the materialist's game. I would much rather lead a noble life, than to put a price on finding a suitable wife. Would rather be destitute, yet happy living in the slums, than succumb to the notion that dollars are where happiness comes from. Materialism malnourishes mortals into a meagre state, and still you stubbornly claim that money can buy you a worthy soul mate. Dollars dully distance the dearly departed from their kin, as money matters mercilessly murder marriages. Although this thing called money makes your world go round, I would rather centre on ideas that are much more profound. I am a king in my own right, my riches are my knowledge, to which there is no end in sight. I will prosper knowing that I am simply alive and full of life. Bursting at the seams and brimming over with dreams, I do not need millions, in order to silence my own screams. Instead, I embrace a lifetime of stopping to smell the flowers. Powerful in my own way, my treasures lie in all that money does not devour. With the assistance of the karma that I have saved, I will reign triumphant, no longer corporately enslaved.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Solar
Your eyes are deep and reflective, as fiery as the majestic sun. My planets all prostrate towards you in orbit, yet I still feel as lonely as the number one. I ventured to the poles in search of a cure for my isolation. At night, I look to the sky, and I can only see your constellation. The stars align above the world and hint to me that you are the one. The beauty I feel as a result of you, will never be outdone. For some reason that I cannot explain, your name courses throughout my veins. It sends shivers up my spine, validating that your love is truly divine. Like a black hole, it devours me whole, refusing to give me a moment to catch my breath. If you were to fall under harm, I would sleep for two and forty hours, just like Juliet. Even if I was diagnosed with Alzheimer's, yours is a face I could never forget. All the charades I played at with others before you, were just a prelude to your kiss. I feel as enchanted as a fairy tale, as I embrace our never ending bliss. Like a song, you arrived and filled my world with colour. You painted with vibrancy on my canvas, like no other lover. Reds and blues danced ensnared by one another, creating a masterpiece only visible to those in love. Although imperfect by far, the beauty that we share could fill our very own Sistine Chapel, displayed proudly on the ceiling above. The crimson tears that have fallen will not return for a sequel, as finally, for the first time, you can view me as an equal. The competition between us has dried out, we should have been aware of its impermanence. Although there was resistance, persistence assisted in maintaining our existence. We were threatened by extinction for many months and days, until you reignited the fire within me and set my world ablaze. I was caught in your rapture so sublime, as I lost all sense of time. I committed lustful crimes, believing that our love was merely worth a dime. No longer foolish, I see through new eyes, born with wings, yet I crawled through life. My strife removed, cut away by your knife. I can now resume being filled by the eternal hunger that desires to consume me whole, no longer in control. I have received a death row pardon as your key has set me free on parole. Saved within my last few moments here on God's green earth, I praise you, and cherish you for showing me my worth. The grass was never greener on the other side, you were the fillet mignon that made my heart glow. I must confide, that with you at my side, I finally feel alive. I can no longer lead a life veiled by my own reclusive, self imposed exile. I have realized now, that I can not enter your Heaven unless I become like a child. The heat you emanate shelters me throughout the winter, your solar powered love has removed all hindrances and cleared my path. Caressed by your rays, as I bask within your heat, you shower my summer days with golden hues, making me feel like love's elite. Your sunshine is a blessing that fills my world with wonder, it warms my heart and keeps me safe; no longer frightened by life's thunder.
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