When I was young &
inexperienced, arrogance
fooled me into believing
I was ingenious.
Life was a box of chocolates,
like nothing could be easier.
But now that I'm older,
I've learned humility.
The more I grow,
the less I know.
With ev'ry turn,
there's lots to learn.
The spoils
of youth, though rich
& luxurious are not as
bright as the wisdom
I've earned, like learning
to be worriless. Wars waged
and battles braved, I've
swallowed my pride.
Release the rebel and
silence survives.
I filled in
the chip on my shoulder,
and prevented it from
becoming a boulder.
And matter of fact,
I've no monkeys at
my back. It's bananas
to think I used to let
them attack.
Accident-prone yet bulletproof, resilience courses through my veins. After plucking out the shrapnel from my own Hell-Bent self-destruction, all I was left with was me. Through embracing my darkness, I found the light. Here lie a sordid collection of POETRY, PROSE, AND REFLECTIONS on the traumas & triumphs along the way.
Wednesday, November 09, 2022
Bananas.
Hogwart's.
my love is just another crutch;
a whole circus, tainted by trust.
oh wizard me, enchanted thee;
you are hog's wart; i'm diamond dust.
but i digress; i need some rest.
my waving wand ain't your horcrux.
just like a sponge, you sopped me up.
absorbed my aura, you're so porous.
the more i gave, the more you took.
made demands without a deed.
no bill of sale, you can't own us.
so let me go, just let me be.
take your storebought charm
out to the curb, cos i deserve—
equality.
i'm a free bird. and i return;
because i've got integrity.
i set you apart, you put me aside.
pull at my heart, i'll tear you to pieces.
i come alive, so take back your lies.
tell your untruths, cos they dont fly
with me anymore; wont die for your love
i'll rise above; the skies, like doves
i wont be weeping another weekend.
no more weak days for your cheap ways.
so go suck face with some creep, babe
i wont keep place for your steep hate
so dont lose sleep to shear sheep, eh
watch me fade now like myspace
Lethal.
When you pick me right up then toss me around, you tie my heart up in lies, say you wont let me down, right before I'm let down, you wring me out—then hang me up to dry
I keep soaking you up,
absorbing your love,
falling for your endless
fabrications.
ev'rything you do,
all the words you use,
your ev'ry single move is
calculated...
Added up our numbers,
evened out the odds,
multiplied the reasons why
I'm divided by these flaws
and I'mmmmmm frustrated from
separating your fallacies, trying
to piece together what to believe;
the truth you tell me is ill-conceived
and deep-ly deceitful. Our love
could've been superhuman
but it's just lethal.
Barbaric, savage; primeval.
Addictive enough to end a life,
and yet it's still legal.
Wednesday, January 26, 2022
Glass.
Spontaneous combust,
coughed up, in a cloud of dust,
erased the air, to tread on trust,
swept under rugs to stop the stuck,
unwind the clock cos time is up.
Reverse the curse, release the clutch,
steeped in sweat, sweet innocents,
disarm the dreadful dissonance.
Rewind the tape, to relive the rust
that ate away, and eroded us;
like acid rain, corrosive cut.
I fade away, to further my fear
of failed filial obligatory fuss.
I uncross my heart, & hope to live,
receive the love that I, too, give.
Put myself first to make it last—
add armour to my house of glass.