Dance of the drunk and dazed,
wide awake, as slumber slips away,
escaping through a crack in wooden wall,
floating in merriment down empty halls.
With spirits high, singing a sailor song,
soon the gentry will arrive, it won't be long.
Life is like a lullaby when seen through cloudy eyes,
feather light and floating in fleecy skies.
Just like a babe learning to use their feet,
toddle up and down childhood's familiar streets.
Nostalgia nears as life flashes releasing a sigh,
forgotten faces suddenly seem so nigh.
Memories rush in, crowding the room,
sweeping away the cobwebs that once loomed.
Day dreams as dusk paints the world pink and red,
once night falls, the children must be abed.
To innocence we once again return,
free from worry or concern;
fast asleep before the lights are dim,
in peace, at last, life becomes a phantom limb.
Accident-prone yet bulletproof, resilience courses through my veins. After plucking out the shrapnel from my own Hell-Bent self-destruction, all I was left with was me. Through embracing my darkness, I found the light. Here lie a sordid collection of POETRY, PROSE, AND REFLECTIONS on the traumas & triumphs along the way.
Friday, March 11, 2016
Dictator.
Disparaged my weakest,
violated my nation’s most chaste,
vandalized its buildings,
and pillaged then raped.
Your fascism ruined through
demoralizing others with your scrutiny,
sending their confidence careening
until all they had left was insecurity.
Claimed to care about your people
though all they looked like to you were dollar signs,
capitalized on their losses
every time you attacked from behind.
every time you attacked from behind.
You were the Chairman of China,
or Hitler, sometimes Stalin,
with more kills than Genghis Khan
or Napoleon’s armies.
You ruled like Caligula;
man, woman, nor beast were safe,
calculatedly divided unions
creating separate states.
Abandoned all reason,
you committed senseless murders for fun;
threatened your people with execution
if they dared to run.
Your thirst for blood was not slaked
until your body count was more than one million,
your bloodline may be insane
but there can only be one Kim Il-Sung.
Should anyone fail to revere
their supreme leader,
your minions would toss them
into the Taedong
River .
No weapon was too mighty,
missiles, gases, nor grenades,
death by hanging will end your reign,
similar to Saddam Hussein.
similar to Saddam Hussein.
You delighted in violence,
just like Vlad the third,
impaled all your victims,
then bathed in their blood.
just like Vlad the third,
impaled all your victims,
then bathed in their blood.
A name like yours is
solely synonymous with genocide,
you were mean like Mugabe,
with Idi Amin’s pride.
you were mean like Mugabe,
with Idi Amin’s pride.
Only you would attempt to minimize murder
by renaming it the Red Terror,
it was evident in every failed assassination attempt
that you were more vile than Vladimir Lenin.
Similar to Enver Pasha’s addiction to power,
instead of being ashamed for being a coward,
you wiped out two million to compensate for each loss,
without stopping once to consider the actual cost.
instead of being ashamed for being a coward,
you wiped out two million to compensate for each loss,
without stopping once to consider the actual cost.
Thursday, March 10, 2016
Concerto.
Hold me against your body,
run your fingers along my magic strings,
turn each stroke into a haunting melody,
strum away my pain and make me sing.
run your fingers along my magic strings,
turn each stroke into a haunting melody,
strum away my pain and make me sing.
Gently press your lips
against me,
wet them and then softly blow,
with each exhale, I let out a sigh,
then slowly lose control.
wet them and then softly blow,
with each exhale, I let out a sigh,
then slowly lose control.
Whether you’re an amateur,
or the maestro of the symphony,
the music we make is a consequence
of our classical chemistry.
or the maestro of the symphony,
the music we make is a consequence
of our classical chemistry.
Pretend I am a piano,
let your fingertips dance wildly on my ivory keys,
silence your suffering with moonlit sonatas,
finesse me with my very own Fur Elise.
let your fingertips dance wildly on my ivory keys,
silence your suffering with moonlit sonatas,
finesse me with my very own Fur Elise.
Now blow into me with all
your might,
let me blare like trumpets and French horns,
empty your lungs into my own,
then listen proudly as I fill every corner of the room.
let me blare like trumpets and French horns,
empty your lungs into my own,
then listen proudly as I fill every corner of the room.
Count the beats and keep the
tempo,
when you bang me like a drum.
Smash into me like cymbals,
swaying in vibrato to the rhythm.
when you bang me like a drum.
Smash into me like cymbals,
swaying in vibrato to the rhythm.
When you’re feeling blue,
cradle me like a saxophone,
let my sweet jazz soothe your sorrows,
until you remember you are not alone.
cradle me like a saxophone,
let my sweet jazz soothe your sorrows,
until you remember you are not alone.
Whether you prefer the
balalaika,
the sitar or the mandolin,
your hands will always know
the right notes to play on my violin.
the sitar or the mandolin,
your hands will always know
the right notes to play on my violin.
Epilogue.
Once so desperate for your attention
that I did handstands and magic tricks,
just for a bit of your affection,
I swallowed fire and chewed on bricks.
I wanted you to notice me,
and like all that you would see,
yearned for your love so deeply,
like it could make me happy.
Now in the aftermath of us,
I see that I couldn’t have been more wrong,
you made me believe in fairy tales
before you robbed me of my song.
Stripped me of my confidence,
every time you berated me for your own indiscretions,
your insecurities ate you alive,
they were the reason why you viewed me as your
possession.
Convinced me that you cared,
claimed that you had never been in love like this;
until you left and abandoned me,
alone to fend for myself on a sinking ship.
Your kiss, sweeter than Belgian chocolate,
and smoother than ice wine,
quickly became toxic,
like poisoned turpentine.
Naiveté, the reason why I fell for all your games,
foolishly believed our love was hotter than fire,
despite not seeing any flames.
Now that I have been transformed
by the absence of you,
I have changed and grown so much
that I am now brand new.
My heart is no longer wounded,
my skin is thick once again,
no amount of love’s carnage
will ever cause me pain.
I am a warrior now,
a fighter with an army of one,
I would rather be alone, in love with myself,
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