Sorrowful.

I behaved in such a way that fills me with so much shame.
I slandered your reputation and tarnished both our names.
You asked for nothing but honesty and I just played foolish games.
Now that I am alone, so alone, I have to accept the blame.

Sorrowful now that I have no idea what tomorrow holds.
I chose to go astray instead of following your road to Rome that was paved with gold.
I claimed I wrote the book, my ego got in the way and I lost control.
Threw my arms up in frustration, didn't stick around to see how our story would unfold.

I spit on my past now as I cannot let it dictate our future.
Pretended that there were other qualified suitors,
but that was just a lie, a figment of my own imagination.
My wounds refuse to heal, only your hands can do up the sutures.
I close my eyes and cry for all I see is your picture...it's haunting me.

Possessed now as you're the one that loved me best.
I confess now that you're the one that stands taller than the rest.
Detest how I made you suffer through my worst.
But it's true how, I said I would always put you first.

Every day now, without you, feels like too many hours too long.
As I sit and daydream about you; then I sing you silly songs.
You were the closest I had ever come to perfection. 
Now I patiently await our love's resurrection.

Sorrowful now that I have no idea what tomorrow holds.
I chose to go astray instead of following your road to Rome that was paved with gold.
I claimed I wrote the book, my ego got in the way and I lost control.
Threw my arms up in frustration, didn't stick around to see how our story would unfold.

Amore, tu sei mio vita, te amo...
forever. I imagine us together, in Sicily
or strolling through the sands of Positano.
You brought colour to my life just like the Cinque Terre.
So elegant like in Milano.
In Napoli, we could eat gnocchi.
Just say you'll always be my blueby.

Sorrowful now that I have no idea what tomorrow holds.
I chose to go astray instead of following your road to Rome that was paved with gold.
I claimed I wrote the book, my ego got in the way and I lost control.
Threw my arms up in frustration, didn't stick around to see how our story would unfold.

Bluebies.

Love in all its magnificence can fill even the darkest spaces with light.
Genuine adoration and affection often warm the coldest nights.
To truly admire another knowing they feel the same, can satisfy even the most insatiable hunger pains. The stars and satellites in the night sky remind me only of your face, and when I lay my head down to sleep, I imagine you are right here with me.
Your eyes still sparkle behind my own, as your voice lulls me into my reverie.
There is nothing, no love in this world, like that between you and me.
Soon, you'll fly around the world, your dreams are taking flight.
I just clasp my palms so tightly and pray that soon we can begin our life.
I am yours eternally, together we can save the world.
With my childlike innocence and your heart as delicate as the finest pearls.

REMember Me

Last night, I slept without the need for dopamine. 
My reverie was filled with dreams of you and me.
Sweet serotonin slumber made me feel like it was summer.
You possess my every thought, my heart beat's a guitar and you are the drummer.
So in love, I need no pills now that I welcome my REM state with open arms.
Wrapped up in you, I'm safe from harm.
What I wouldn't do to have you next to me.
Just please promise not to forget, but instead remember me.
What good is nor-epinephrine if your heart is restless,
who needs to feel secure or happy if there's no one to share it with?
I claim to want to be alone just so nobody knows,
how my nights are filled with your caresses, your smile is my home.
My amygdala is where you reside, with all my pain put away, only pleasure remains.
I long to hear your voice, how I wish on all the stars that you were near.
Separation is too great a punishment, I fear.
I gave you something old, something borrowed and blue. 
New things even, as a promise I'll stay true.
One day, in the future, I know we'll reunite.
But until then, I pray our flame still burns as bright.
Just don't break my soul or heart any more, the damage is done.
Please promise not to forget, but instead, remember me.

God Particle

In Switzerland, the scientists created a God particle,
claiming that the creator could be made in a laboratory.
Interesting to say the least but what about faith that brings me to my knees?
The belief that I am but a mere speck in history?
Sacrilege and blasphemy often go hand in hand.
Ignorance, however, is not bliss;
I wish this was a concept more of us could understand.
Wanting to be first and best has always been mankind's demand,
resulting in conflicts throughout the world's holy lands.
I am an unholy man; done things in my short time here
that I am too ashamed to admit.
But now I plead the fifth as that glove no longer fits, so please acquit.
Changing as I grow older, evolving as I defeat my bad habits.
I vow from here on out to solely speak the truth. 
A car although a vehicle can also be a photo booth.
Slowly but surely conquering my demons, my anxieties are soothed.
It is but meagre recompense for behaving like Ebenezer Scrooge.
But I am not a stooge even if my hair is Curly, not Larry or Moe,
as I regain my footing trying to recount all that I know.
No more pain or fear, I surrender and accept to reap all that I have sown.
Lo and behold, take in my stance as I put my lips together and blow.
Hail Mary, full of grace and forgive me father, for my sins.
Grant me the courage to accept the things I can'tchange.
Let me be secure in my identity so that I can, once again, know serenity.
Guilt and shame so often get the best of me,
so please just let me do me as I forget so quickly 

about life and liberty in my pursuit to be happy.