Thursday, February 14, 2013

Stains.


Cancerously consumed me ravaging my sanity making me despise you more with each minute that slipped away like sand, your manner maligned me mockingly as your acid lies corroded the beauty in our land.  Still naive of me to believe that this was not a part of your plan, you were barely a boy though you claimed to be a man.

Wickedly waged a war with me, wanting to wound me with your words as weapons, vindictively victimized me, venomously terrorized me, you were such a villain.  Ravenously rode me raining on my happiness with every chance you'd get, pitifully probed me preying on my weakness resulting in rivers of regret. 

I trusted you to treat me right instead you robbed me in the night, I trusted you to treat me right, but you stripped  me of my sight.  

You really blinded me, played me like a pawn in your wicked game of Chess.  Really blind-sighted me, left my world in such a mess.  

Fiercely fabricated figments of your imagination that you accused me of, though my only fear was that I had foolishly fallen in love.  Angrily accosted me at every opportunity that arose, aiming to avenge your heart that others had froze.  

Poisonously painted a picture of me that profiled you as the saint, possessed, you played the part provoking sympathy from all, sadistically saved your torment for me, somehow convinced that I was the sinner though my self-respect prevailed and prevented me from taking the fall.

I trusted you to treat me right instead you robbed me in the night, I trusted you to treat me right, but you stripped  me of my sight.  

You really blinded me, played me like a pawn in your wicked game of Chess.  Really blind-sighted me, left my world in such a mess.  

Unburdened of you now, I can confess that your vile notion of love left me blessed aware now and conscious of what I do and don't deserve.  Liberated from your lies, I can attest and promise that karma's claws will sink into your chest, just wait and see, my reputation will be preserved.

Look who's crying now, that I am immune to your petty games.  Your war crimes against me are over, your power over me went up in flames.  You can keep trying to point the finger without accepting any blame.  Now that it's all over, I have washed away your stains.  

I trusted you to treat me right instead you robbed me in the night, I trusted you to treat me right, but you stripped  me of my sight.  

You really blinded me, played me like a pawn in your wicked game of Chess.  Really blind-sighted me, left my world in such a mess.  

Predator.


The predator becomes the prey as I lie in wait for you to devour me, I have been waiting for this day.  
With each mouthful, you gain power over me, weaker with each word you say.  

A drop of my blood was all it took into your shark infested waters,
to make you crave the taste of me, I bite my lip as I am slaughtered.  
You were a carnivore from the start, a perfect match for me, a mere piece of meat,
wanting you to ingest me like the tastiest treat.

In the desert, I cut myself hoping you would catch my scent and notice me from above, it wasn't long before you circled me wanting to feast on me with your love.  
I never expected a vulture to take its time the way you did,
making me moan as you feasted on my bones, all of it worth the sacrifice to have you touch my skin.  

The predator becomes the prey as I lie in wait for you to devour me, I have been waiting for this da
With each mouthful, you gain power over me, weaker with each word you say.  

Lying in the savannah and its grasslands, I patiently await you and your pride
To begin hunting for kill, swallow me whole then make me your bride
Call me the queen of your jungle as your teeth sink into my raw hide
Safe from poachers and scavengers now that I found my way inside

Temperatures drop as we travel to the great white north, I swim up stream 
Unlike your cousins grizzly, brown and black, you were the clear leader of your team
You reach into the water and paw at me, invigorating me, I am now polar bare
Just one touch is enough to leave me breathless and gasping for air

The predator becomes the prey as I lie in wait for you to devour me, I have been waiting for this day
With each mouthful, you gain power over me, weaker with each word you say

Original Sin.

On bended knee, I seek contrition for my carnal sins, 
grant me a private audience  
so I can seduce you with my confession;
help me undress from my suffering.  

Let my pain be your pleasure, whip me into shape 
then join me with your hands in prayer, 
as I bow my head further in submission, 
seeking recompense, I refuse to come up for air.  

Shine your light down on me from above,
and bless me with a kiss;
release me like the dove,
then free me from my abyss.  

Crucify me with your caress, 
liberate my spirit with each calculated touch.
My name waits in vain to be the only one that you address;
just do not dismiss me, I yearned for so long to be judged.  

Satiate my hunger with your body made of bread, 
feed me, nourish me and tease me, sending me to purgatory like the dead.  
Drown me in your blood red wine dyeing my blind faith in the process, 
I turned down a life of luxury in the hopes I would catch your attention and impress.  

Mea culpa, forgive me father for I have mercilessly sinned, 
punish me accordingly, like you are Cain and I am your twin.  
Brand me with a scarlet letter, make an example of me for succumbing to temptation, 
I will take it all in stride for it was worth the eternal damnation.  

In the garden of good and evil, neither prevailed, both lost,
as I chose to pay the cost, to seduce my boss.  
No burning bush could save me now as I have surrendered to desire, 
your heavenly heat toys with me, filling my entire being with fire.  

Immaculate conception love that has given my heart direction, 
you have rescued me from myself, I have been resurrected.

Natural.

Your skin against my own as soft as winter's first sweet snow, the heat from your thighs like the sun that warms the summer and its skies, your finger tips like thunder, electrically charged and filled with wonder, your fragrant breath like a spring breeze when caressing the nape of my neck.  Eyes golden brown and deep, radiant from within, kisses from velvet lips that sensually seduce me like sins, hands that fall like autumn leaves adding colour to me from the inside out, I turn bright, crimson red as my body rewards you with goosebumps and you become the leader to my boy scout.  Like a seasoned lover, you are patient as your crops await my rain, not a drop of me is wasted until I circle your drain.  Passion was once as unclear to me as a sky covered in pollution, unbeknownst to me was that your love was the solution.  Clouded no more, I see the light shining from the Heavens right into you then into me, like spring does to the cherry tree, you have made me blossom and then magically set me free.        

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