Cancer

I tried to be assertive, to give all that I had to give. But you ripped out my insides, made me lose my will to live. I ran out of the fight so long ago, like a boxer whose retired, no longer a pro. I bid my friends adieu, as I submitted solely to you. Played the game you loved so much, only to feel the smoldering burn of your fiery touch. The desire to continue in this foolish escapade, rots my stomach and makes it turn like a poisoned game of charades. Your love was a revolver and I was your easy target, life became so much harder as I retaliated against the venom that you would spit. I persisted in my attempts to break the chains that were so binding, but alas my efforts were in vain as our bittersweet love story kept unwinding. I was just trying to love you, yet my efforts were to no avail. Your elusive symphony was orchestrated and successful without fail. You made it much too difficult for such an unrequited love to prevail. You drank greedily of my wine as violinists desperately attempted to recount our sorrowful tale. Like a Roman tragedy, our audience saw what we refused to disavow. I wish you had allowed yourself to show me that you are wiser now. With raised brow, I vowed to never again be so naive. I apologize for hurting you, and stealing your innocence off of your sleeve. I hope there is forgiveness between us in the distant future. My heart will not heal right as long as I keep tearing out these sutures. I cannot accept that this just might be the end. I silently wept and grieved the loss of my dearest friend. Your secrets will be kept and held inside until our love will mend. Then I will whisper them into your lips once more, as love will always transcend. Your beauty was so immense, it was reminiscent of cathedrals in Florence. Like life underneath the Tuscan sun, I can imagine the life we could have had full of such magnificence. Had I appreciated all the gifts you had inside, I am certain that the romance between us would have increased and never died. I was a tumour so malignant, as I spread evil throughout your world. Cancerously, I attacked all that you would adore. In the end, I am forced to accept that this vicious love is not one to be restored.

Rapture

Caught in a rapture, yet I still feel so alone. Restlessly searching for someone to fill your throne. I cry as I fall and awaken from my dreams, cover my ears to avoid the sounds of my own screams. I am accursed as you drag me to Hell, I pray to the lord to remove this wicked spell. It binds my joints to one another, makes me feel as if I am being smothered. I was the strongest once, I could have been a contender. Instead I smile insipidly, and remain a mere pretender. I envisioned a future full of glamour, so divine; red carpets, Swiss chocolates, chartered jets and the finest wines. Contrarily I am left so bereft, you committed grand theft as you robbed me of the last amounts of love that I had yet to give. Now that they are gone, how am I expected to continue to live? The smile on my face melted off, and smelted; like stained glass, you wear it in your palm. With much aplomb, I enter my tomb, offer alms to those deprived, as I exit life's womb. I am no longer your prisoner, I have escaped the dreary fate that you had set in stone for me. I am wiser now, I can finally see that you are not, nor were you ever, what God had in store for me.

Eden

You are as enigmatic as the Thinker immortalized by Auguste Rodin. As enthralling as the sun that sets over Mount Fuji of Japan. You have mesmerized me like the dervishes that dance in spiritual devotion, enraptured my essence like the waves that ebb and flow in the world's majestic oceans. I am your prisoner as I remain captured within your caresses. Like Rapunzel's prince I plead to feel the luxuriant beauty of your tresses. In the summer's blissful rain, I want to dance as I hold your hand. Every dream that your heart makes will be granted as your wish is my command. I will course the world for all the things that make it beautiful and divine. I will compare their beauty to my beloved's and they will no longer shine. Diamonds of the utmost lustre could never shine as bright; you are my north star as you guide my way into your arms when I am afraid at night. I sought solace in caves atop mountains where prophets had received revelations. Only to find that all I needed was to look in your direction in order to find my true inspiration. Similar to alchemy, the chemicals between us reacted, causing a great transformation. Destiny has certainly decreed that you will be my eternal adoration. Roses could not smell as sweet as the scent that you emanate from your golden pores. I was mistaken to assume your heart was one that I could learn to abhor. Although I am an anomaly, you have peered into my soul. This was when I realized, our bodies had experienced a continental drift; that you are the piece that makes my puzzle whole. I have tasted the fruit of Eden, and although it is a sin, I cannot stop the ecstasy that I am covered in.

Rebirth

You were held captive, like an injured bird in my cage. You were too often the victim of my misdirected rage. I do not know how to act in this purgatorial stage, as our love was once so magical as if enchanted by a sage. I look into your eyes and see that they are ablaze. Yet I feign ignorance and pretend that you are not phased. I hypnotized you with my lies and left you mesmerized in a daze. If I could turn back time, I would rewind to when you were still amazed. I tore your heart to pieces, as shrapnel filled the air. I am beguiled and inveigled by your unforgiving stare. Like a child you are so pure, no other can compare. I just cannot accept that this is the end of our torrid love affair. You saved me from the darkness that threatened to devour me whole. My Notre Dame has fallen as its bell has ceased to toll. Justice must be served for your happiness that I continuously stole. You are my sole source of sustenance as I drink from your bowl. My hair falls out in clumps as I grieve my greatest loss. I fell off the bridge on my noble path, although it could have been so simple for me to get across. I wish I had paid more attention to my heart, the one that you worked so hard to defrost. My future feels so grim and bleak, now that all of your boundaries I have crossed. I am covered in filth as I sit devastated and full of guilt. Even after your trust had been rebuilt, I stubbornly refused to make amends for all the blood that I continued to spill. I am your greatest misfortune, the coward that now wilts. Sanctimoniously clad in hypocrisy in its lowest form. I celebrate you for your unfaltering ability to keep me warm. One day you will notice all the ways that love has transformed. I am no longer a sinner, I have finally been reborn.