Chronic Couture.

 I used to bend. 

Melted into velvet 

backdrops, like 

couture.

A formless figure;

easily posed, 

with fickle bone, 

that floated across 

the stage.

The marionette me

even made the frigid 

melt. 

But now, I fray.

My timeless youth

no longer ticks, 

as sickness seared me

with its brand. 

Torture, in tremors,

& aches so great

I quaked, 

like the open mouth 

of a bellowing 

grave.

Blunder.

In this space, I have nothing.

No home, no stone; 

everything is hollow.

Emptier than I've ever been, 

I waver between wanting life

And wanting to just end it.

How much longer can I stand this,

longing to burst out of this planet.

They say no man is an island,

then why have I been abandoned?

Life and its luxuries have left me 

stranded, and I struggle to understand it.

Wasted away on simpler days, 

I knew I should've saved 

happiness for days it rained,

instead I feel depraved.

Now I am but a spectator here,

a mere spectre; a speck of disaster.

A carcinogen soaked stain 

that is impossible to erase,

And as I pray for my fate to change,

I trace my footsteps back to a place 

devoid of pain. 

I am worthy of love,

i deserve to smell success,

i pnd regain the composure that helped me through storms that raged, but still I rise.

I am brave, I am resilient.  

I will make it through the thunder,

and rejoice for one more day,

without a single blunder.

Life, It Goes On, Anyway.

Allow yourself to exist, freely,

for you are tiny particles of stars.
Let your love light the way,
when the world is cold and dark.

Because life, it goes on, anyway,
so go ahead and make your mark.

Wander through your wonder,
whether they are near or far.
You could even see the planets,
if that is the dream inside your heart.

Because life, it goes on, anyway,
so go ahead and make your mark..

Paint vibrantly upon your canvas,
you're already a work of art.
Dance like nobody's watching,
sing every song out real loud,
Maybe you'll master the piano,
or learn how to play guitar.

Because life, it goes on, anyway,
so go ahead and make your mark.