Sunday, November 13, 2022

Felt — A Poem on Emotional Aftermath

Time stood still for nary a soul,                    
it dragged its feet, aching and old. 
Blistering heat that made us melt, 
we were once softer than silk felt.

Hallowed hearts wind whistled through,
covered in bruises, black and blue.
Hardly broken, but maybe bent,
running on empty and love spent.

There comes a day in all our lives,
when our failures cut deep as knives.
But you shall remain a triumph,
you stayed with me, like a science.

Words were whispered, curses, we'd shout,
until the blood drained from our mouths.
Yesterday—softer than silk felt;
seems like all we do these days is yell.

Wednesday, November 09, 2022

Outer Space — A Poem on Distance, Dating, and Emotional Drift

Even in deep space,
your love holds me down,
Your embrace has weight,
and keeps me coming, back around

I was on track to be a tragedy,
before we collided, like stars
You give me gold, you give me gravity,
and it's more than fancy cars

I was a lonely planet on my own
Now you are the sun to my moon
I orbit you and feel at home.
I was in ruins, but I'm brand new.

No distance between us,
could break us, or tear us
apart.
Not miles, or minutes,
not even lightyears would be
too far for my arms.

You light up my galaxy,
our universe exists inside
my heart.

Closer than the others,
if I'm Earth, then you are my Mars.
You keep me human, keep me golden,
keep me green, and grounded.

Give me freedom, give me healing,
eclipse me, leave me astounded.
Celestially, you are the best for me,
I rest my chemistry, and let you
undress me.

Effortlessly, you impress me,
effervescent, I'm obsessing.
Astro know me, come explore me,
Supernova, satisfy my
celestial body, cosmo comet,
asteroid shower, like meteorites,
I stargaze, and you give me power.

Immaturity.


You, 
made me believe
that maybe we could achieve 
some picture-perfect peace
to relieve, release; to ease
our anxieties, undeniably
the parts of us that were diseased
our tormented entirety,
oh how it reeks, this irony
that maybe we could be free
too blind to see
there was no vacancy
no vacancy for emotions that
had no agency, amazingly
abrasively, we returned to
being strangers in the streets
like two opposing ships at sea
the beasts but not the bees
like ghosts who would not grieve,
the gifts that we received,
that day that we, conceived
this wicked web we weaved.
a melodramatic make-believe.
how prepubescent
juvenile, infantile,
without blessing,
the next best thing.
Inexpressive, undeniable
inattentive, unreliable,
wreaking havoc through
speaking words so viable.



Titanic. (Freestyle)

 

Gigantic. I'm manic,
Atlantic, like the Titanic.
Why panic?
Not like you'll be in the attic,
or in the annex,
you didn't vanish,
these antics are so erratic,
but you love my Johnson
cos you know I'm Magic.

You talkin to me?
Let's talk about tragic.
Gremlin like Gizmo,
inspector gadget.
Get you lit,
wanna play with matches.
No press passes, just fat asses,
big butts, and tiggolbooties.
Take you on a date,
out to the movies.
Make those milks shake
sip on those smoothies.

Call me big poppa,
I'll get it juicy.
Tequila shots,
let's keep it boozy.
Buy you a Mickey,
let's get it Goofy.
I'm not Bill Cosby,
won't be no roofie.
Dr. Huxtable without
the Rudy.
Don't come for me,
cos I'm Judge Judy
Got some splainin to do,
you can call me Ricky,
& you be Lucy.

You can pick your nose,
but don't get choosy.
All tied up, so I say
this loosely, if you
act like Suzy, then
you're gonna lose me.
Come see the wizard,
we could get real woozy.
Heat it up, hot tub, or maybe
jacuzzi. Take you to the spa,
let you feel real bougie,
Discotheque, know I keep
you groovy.

Catch a flick, or watch
a movie, flick your bean,
or you could do me.
Got a problem with it?
Then why don't you sue me.
And until then, better keep
it cute, B.
Brand new to you,
but I'm the same old G.
Kasherintherye could kash you in the eye,
or you could cash me ousside.
How bout dat, I'll let you decide.
Going straight to the top,
maybe I'll let you ride.
At 3:14, get a slice of me,
cos I'm a pumpkin pie.
And if you're still confused,
then I'll set you loose.
Admit you lose,
get a new groove.
Give it to you straight,
no chase no lube,
find your place, & it's
safe to say, it aint the louvre,
this ain't it, sis, you're not a hit.
You can't touch this,
cos you are dismissed.

Warrior's Worth — A Poem on Love and Longing

 

Dear warrior,
while you weather storms
through wars waged
against your worth,
remember, you
have purpose,
and come from the
deep, cool Earth.

Although the sinister
& sly may have tried to
steal the innocence
of your smile, you remain;
stand your ground & stay,
you are so much more
than sorrow, although it
seems to be a stain.

And when malevolent
men manipulate through
tactics meant to intimidate
you cannot let them conjugate
you, for they could never capture
the courage that has made you.

For you were meant to soar,
do not let the rest clip
your wings to steal your flight.
Fly away, or fight, dear warrior–
they could never dim your light.

Madness — A Poem on Emotional Extremes

When I rage, I rumble, cave, and crumble, slip and stumble, bleak, I bumble, like the thunder, I crash, then clap, snap, crackle and POP against the still & silent night

I slip,
and spew, acidic ash,
then steal the stars right
out from the sky.
I scream, to shriek,
to prey on passersby.
I flash like lightning, with all
my might, I bite, so brightly,
fighting all the blessings in my life.

My ego roars awake, it
makes the ground shake, like
I'm an earthquake, leaving disaster
in its wake, determined
to bruise our beautiful land,
and dehydrate its lakes.
I climb higher, growing stronger—
making marks, and lasting longer.
A tsunami of me, that spares
no sinner, and saves no saint.

Unrelenting, unapologetic for the lives
I'd take. I throw a fit, and let it rip,
and tear apart entire towns.
A sonic boom that blasts and
razes cities, without a sound.
Voracious, when I vanish villages
in overflowing, rivers of venom.
Amplified by the acid that I spit,
ambivalent, as I annihilate the
aggregate with utter arrogance.

These idiots incite more incendiary
ill events, but ammunition-toting armies
of elephants I bring lay them out.
I am villified by my vindictive
variety of vengefulness, that
veers invernal; much
colder than the Arctic air, I
fester frostily, more frigid
than the least inhabitable
regions across the globe.

Going for the gold, I aim
for the throat, jab at the jugular
in jest, cos I am the GOAT.
Ravenous,and rabidly,
I revoke your rights,
Riotous, until you're ragged,
this undesirable ire
can be quite rancid.
It is the pinnacle of
my primeval, animalistic
anger; the apex of a counter-intuitive
need to cause harm and
create danger. Malignant, like
cancer cos it pretends to be
close to me, liks family
although it remains a
a stranger.

A trauma response to taking onmore terror than I could handle,      although I know that I should just          walk away.

Not every turn deserves another,                  I shouldn't bother by responding to every benign insult with a massive attack that creates more grieving mothers.

But somewhere between losing every battle and wreaking havoc by breaking war protocols in wrath, I seem to have forgotten to maintain my calm, and keep some semblance of decorum & class.

Born to break cycles, and chains, and built to outlast. Strong enough to survive, but too brittle not to blast. I persevere through my past, modest, I make waves without splash, an outcast because I contrast their forecasts and left 'em aghast. 

Fortune amassed, I'm too fast, enthusiastic iconoclast I lambast when I'm harassed, rewrote their rough drafts and thrashed through their ceilings. Smashed the system, unabashed, cashed bank drafts that rescued me like life rafts. 

Self-Awareness — A Poem on Clarity and Reckoning

 

With each day I take for granted, I vow to appreciate the next, blessed with the opportunity to once again look, and feel my best.  With my feet firmly planted, my morals maneuver me through all the rest, as I have been granted another day to conquer the world and put my limits to the test.  

Some may call me an idealist though I am as real as they come, as I refuse to succumb to the notion that we must all acquiesce to society's rules that really only just make us boring and numb.  

I can paint my own destiny, I am the master of my domain, though my moods and momentum may change in an instant, I am grateful that they change at all, as my indecision shows I'm living, and still standing despite my many falls.  
Others' attempts to understand me often leave them more perplexed than when they began, I am an anomaly and will not be mislabeled by any other man.  

A human being, not one doing, I live and let live just as well, yet I am still often the myth and then the legend that cowards and commoners attempt to dispel.  The subject and the predicate that illiterates will never know how to spell, I have won your game of thrones; I am the king of Winterfell.

Subjugated for far too long, I refuse to remain the victim of your abuse; either endure me or ignore me, your decision is your prerogative, I will not sit idly by waiting for you to choose.  You no longer hold the noose that tightens around my neck, no longer own the signature that validates my cheques.  

My strength lies in my resilience, eternal proverbial phoenix rising from the ashes that I am, this is where you remind me of why your approval is even worth a damn. Some have dubbed me the devil incarnate for I refuse to let anyone in, through the barricades I peer out through from inside my glass house made of equal sin.  

You claim that I am worse than you and even with my ego subdued I cannot accept something so absurd as allowing you to have the final word, I have much more to offer the world, for it will always be my oyster and I will always be its pearl.


Projection.

 

Superfluous in your sedation,
a situation of inebriation.
Projecting onto others all
that fills you with trepidation.
Your salvation seems to be
entwined with degradation.
Humiliation tactics result in
little more than alienation;
an isolated abomination
enabled by your own frustration.
And yet, you play the fool,
act so coy, as though
it's recreation, when it's really
just cause for further consternation.
The stars in your enchanting
eyes could've been constellations,
instead of this denial-footed dance
that defines your docile narration.
A creation of confidence kissed
by complacence, I pray you find
a way to heal before you pursue
further relations. Irrigate your need
for empty validation, before it eats
away at your soul's starvation.

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