Spirited Away

I gaze longingly at the stars, searching for an answer, attempting to find reason hidden in their alluring mystery. 

With both my eyes squeezed tightly shut, my third awakens and opens; it is wide enough to fit the entire universe in its field of view. 

I see myself reflected in the sky; my ancestors light my way as my soul leaves my body. 

It rises like smoke, and feels as light as steam, filled with the vapours of tears I could not cry; floating higher than hot air balloons that colour the clouds. 

Unexpectedly, I find you—exactly where I left you; between the sound barrier and my dreams, both currently equally inaccessible to me. 

But I am too busy living in the moment, or at least that's what I claim.

I blow you a kiss and pass you by, leaving you behind to chase fulfillment. 

You, the lesson I refused to learn. 

You, the embers that made me burn 
until my lungs could take no more. 

My spirit soars, elated, satisfied to discover a solution to soothe its restlessness, that was its greatest conflict. 

I return to my physical body and turn off the lights, now that I can finally rest in peace.