Instant.

Caught in a whirlwind of emotions as I race to reach the finish line, like some rivers lead to oceans, mine only seemed to lead me to landmines. Maligned, and derailed for the path that I have chosen, I will smarten up, and focus, as my heart thaws out, no longer frozen. I wash the tears away, as I record them while they circle the drain, one's train needs to get wrecked, in order to be whole again. Born again, revived, as I vow to return to being my own best friend. Half my life was spent in the shadows with the deranged, rearranged until my world was in disarray, and no longer looked the same. Tricked myself once, shame on me, fooled me twice, then drowned myself in a lake filled with my own self-pitying misery. I could either go through the motions or force myself to stay devoted, my future was once so bright, and then it just started to seem like it had been aborted. Short-circuited, won't function anymore, as I was tomorrow's child, then started to become yesterday's whore. I abhorred the stares but only because I was uncomfortable with myself, had to realize that self-love was more important than the social disease known as success that I placed higher upon my shelf. I came out of my shell, only to recede into it hours later, watched my emotions as they went up and down, like an unruly, and possessed elevator. Roller coasters of depression aligned the streets of my amusement park, forcing me to admit that my life was becoming another farce that was just dark. The stars began to shun me, the man in the moon cut me off forevermore; yet I still waited, staring through the peephole, to see who was going to show up at my front door. Would it be death, full of sadness, and decay? Or would it be the game of life, beckoning for me to come out and play? I answered, with an open mind, curious to see what I would find, surprised myself upon realizing that somehow I was no longer in a bind. Misery loved company but I had her removed, crossed my heart and prayed to live, immediately reaping the benefits that my soul approved. Improved, I managed to find my way through the darkness where my shadow lived, from this moment, I will no longer silently accept the lack of joy that I refuse to live and give. Turbulence was hit, as my ambulance careened through traffic lined streets, in an instant all was fixed, no longer willing to concede to my defeat.