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Inebriated again, as it slowly sets in. I feel akin, to one who has sinned. I lift my head up; hope it will be over soon. That I will be freed from this isolated commune. I am invincible, I can achieve all. I hope I’m forgiven, pray for my own fall. My ship has set sail, the darkness within has prevailed. Made attempts to no avail, lacking in detail. The kindness you have shown, have shown me better days. The sins for which I will atone, for my life that I betray. My sorrow has grown, as my happiness has withered away. Much to my dismay, it was my failure to portray. A man, a soul, one worthy of extol. You have granted me parole yet, failed to console. The sadness within that is out of my control. It emanates in my heart, seeps out through my skin. Much to my chagrin, I cannot help the pain I’m in. I sway, and I fall, I twist, and I crawl. I have not enthralled, have only appalled. You look at me in envy, as if I am a star. I stare at you, beguiled, entranced from afar. This continuous repeat is never enough to deplete. The feelings of fear, of utter defeat. I tried to show you that I was leading you astray. Yet, you followed me blindly, now your world is in disarray. Your futile attempts to soothe my soul. Have merely been requisites for this drama that unfolds. It is a tale of two lovers, one strong and one weak. Stubbornness and betrayal, as I turned the other cheek. I relinquished my ego to a present so bleak. Banal and blasé, yet my heart still does not speak. If it did, it would say, I have failed you my lord
You nourished me and fed me, yet I still hid my sword. It pierced me with its deceit, its sharp conceit. Its hardness aligned with its streets of concrete. II have abandoned my belief that I will be saved, Highly ashamed of the ways I have behaved. We have drifted apart, no longer moving as one. I weep for my dignity; once again it’s been outdone